Experimenting Within

All i can do is to guide your fingers to the door
ways to my shattered heart,
so you can feel it too
the ocean that travels with me;
how it gathers and breaks,
gathers and breaks...

i have no idea where i'm leading to...where i'll reach..no matter what i do, where i go, still i'll be judged by those things which i want to bury somewhere very deep inside..i hate to be surrounded by people..i don't want to be judged by my past cos i don't dwell there anymore..i somehow try to gather all the strength but people at once crush that accumulated strength and i once again get shattered..
thinking back i recall events i wish i could change, tears i wish had never been shed, time that could have been better spent, and frustrations i could have shrugged off..
Life, it seems, is full of regret, and i yearned to turn back the clock so i could live parts of my life over again..It gets really tough at times to recollect that shattered strength and stand once again and face people's faces...their eyes do all the talking and what they actually speak is not what they mean...there was a time when i felt like living again and again..

God i feel so low
and i fear to show
no matter where i go...

I know, sometimes things do go wrong...i just want to be strong and always learn form the mistakes i do, as everyone of us sometimes learns...all i want to say that don't give up on life, it is meant to teach us many things...for there is sadness that's why we cherish happiness...there is evil that's why we encourage good things...there's always a lot more to learn than too judge others...no one is perfect and will never be...respect the differences in others and don't wish them to be like you...we already have a big task to do and that is to find the hidden treasures from which we are bestowed with...and those hidden treasures you can find no where but only deep inside yourself...start digging yourself cos no one knows what you may get..it may be near when it seems so far..Our soul is the one and only master of us and it works on what we think..The thoughts flow in our mind like an uncontrollable ocean..we should give our thoughts a way, a direction to move on and to make best use of them...Most of the time in a day we keep wondering in our past not knowing that we are ruining our present in which we actually live...Just because that past is true and we have been through that doesn't means that we will ruin our this very moment which will be a past moment in the future...do we really want to regret in the end for wasting our life brooding about the past and judging others...?????