All i can do is to guide your fingers to the door
ways to my shattered heart,
so you can feel it too
the ocean that travels with me;
how it gathers and breaks,
gathers and breaks...
i have no idea where i'm leading to...where i'll reach..no matter what i do, where i go, still i'll be judged by those things which i want to bury somewhere very deep inside..i hate to be surrounded by people..i don't want to be judged by my past cos i don't dwell there anymore..i somehow try to gather all the strength but people at once crush that accumulated strength and i once again get shattered..
thinking back i recall events i wish i could change, tears i wish had never been shed, time that could have been better spent, and frustrations i could have shrugged off..
Life, it seems, is full of regret, and i yearned to turn back the clock so i could live parts of my life over again..It gets really tough at times to recollect that shattered strength and stand once again and face people's faces...their eyes do all the talking and what they actually speak is not what they mean...there was a time when i felt like living again and again..
God i feel so low
and i fear to show
no matter where i go...
I know, sometimes things do go wrong...i just want to be strong and always learn form the mistakes i do, as everyone of us sometimes learns...all i want to say that don't give up on life, it is meant to teach us many things...for there is sadness that's why we cherish happiness...there is evil that's why we encourage good things...there's always a lot more to learn than too judge others...no one is perfect and will never be...respect the differences in others and don't wish them to be like you...we already have a big task to do and that is to find the hidden treasures from which we are bestowed with...and those hidden treasures you can find no where but only deep inside yourself...start digging yourself cos no one knows what you may get..it may be near when it seems so far..Our soul is the one and only master of us and it works on what we think..The thoughts flow in our mind like an uncontrollable ocean..we should give our thoughts a way, a direction to move on and to make best use of them...Most of the time in a day we keep wondering in our past not knowing that we are ruining our present in which we actually live...Just because that past is true and we have been through that doesn't means that we will ruin our this very moment which will be a past moment in the future...do we really want to regret in the end for wasting our life brooding about the past and judging others...?????
paradoxes...!! how can one ever explain what paradoxes are....may be it is to be kept struck in the thoughts of "to do" or "not to do"..."to believe" or "not to believe"....man is a thinking being...and he keeps thinking whole day long...what we actually need is to stop thinking for once and implement all those things which we could never do just because of the fear of "others" or just because of being in the middle of "to do" or "not to do"...or may be because one thinks that it is too late to start...what we should not do is follow the rules made my man...make your own rules and forget others because it doesn't matter...what really matters is that one should follow his own heart who is shouting all the time but we don't lend our ears to it...i feel pity at times...i don't know whether to run behind material things or to listen to what my soul speaks to me...this society teaches us not to suppress others but it does suppresses me to live free...i don't understand why it seems impossible to everyone to feel contended with what they have...we are the one who makes a society and frame the so called laws...what is the use of such laws when they are not implemented...we all know that bad things do happen but to close our eyes and not looking at those bad sectors doesn't mean that it won't happen with us...!!! My mind is sooooo confused after seeing this multi-faced world, what to believe and what not to believe...everything is contradictory...whether it be anything...why can't we just live for ourselves and STOP worrying about what our neighbor does ..each and every person has some or the other problem in his/her life...best things in this universe are meant to be felt and we cannot ever see them...whether it be fear, excitement, love, nervousness, happiness....all are meant to be felt and not to be seen...i'm glad that I know what sadness is, just because of that i cherish my happiness....i'm not upset about it...nor i curse God that why only me...there are many many many more like me...i'm certainly not alone...people say that one should learn to be diplomatic...why ?????????...this is what a paradox is...being a person completely opposite to what we are...!!!! does your heart shouts to speak up ???? don't you feel irritated many times ???? sometimes i do close my eyes and think what am i doing in this world ???? do you also feel the same ?? irritated???? exhausted???? frustrated???? hmmmmmm.... i find myself with no answers...i'm standing at the origin...don't know which direction to take....whom to listen...whom to ask...still confused....fighting with my own thoughts...wish i was not a thinking being, then i would just follow the rules framed by mother nature and doing things instantly without giving it a second thought...CONFUSED.....
